Keep Moving Forward

Around here, however, we don't look backwards for very long.

We keep moving forward, opening up new doors and doing new things, because we're curious....

And curiosity keeps leading us down new paths.

-Walt Disney-

Q of mine

well, there will always be lights and dark in friendship,

just make sure your whole world is spinning still to the another lights come and go.

rite??

OrbitKu Sendiri

Tunggu Aku kembali lagi. Aku selalu lari untuk kembali. Pasti. Tapi kapakn saatKu kembali itu yang masih bersifat stokstik. Separti merabai gugusan bintang untuk mengetahui penjuru langit, tak tentu utara itu di utara. Aku masih berat untuk kembali. Bukan saatnya buatKu, mungkin.

Ini tentang energi mana yang menggravitasiKu untuk merotasi si sekeliling intinya. Karena Aku sendiri adalah meteorit yang belum punya orbitKu sendiri. Aku belum punya intiKu seniri. Belum punya bintangKu sendiri. Apatah lagi energiKu sendiri. Aku luntang-lantung. Hantam kanan, tabrak kiri, melesat maju, tertubruk mundur, mengorbit, lepas dari orbit, ikut orbit lain. Agh!! Sulit sekali bagiKu diam di satu saja orbit. Tidak ada energi yang cukup besar untuk menempelkanKu berputar di orbitnya.

Haruskah Kutemukan cinta? Itukah energi terbesar yang akan Kuorbiti sesisa umurKu? Entahlah ya. Aku sendiri pun tak punya cukup energi untuk memilih.

Cinta Tak Menunggu

Retno bertanya hari itu, "Kenapa sih cinta harus tak menunggu?" Sebuah pertanyaan tentang identitas luvdontwait. Kenapa Aku sampai sebegitunya. Hari itu, tak sempat Kujawab pertanyaan itu. Lidahku terkunci ketika menjawab hal-hal tentang cinta. Sama kakunya ketika harus Kuungkapkan cinta ke wanita yang kurindui di hidup dan mimpiKu setengah mati. Pun sampai hari ini masih belum Kudapatkan jawabannya. Kukatakan pada Retno hari itu, "Baca postingan paling pertamaKu di blog Ku. Itu tentang apa yang takkan ditunggu cinta."

….

Cinta tak menunggu

Sampai mata terpejam menjemput mimpi

Atau napas tertahan dijemput maut

 
 

Cinta tak menunggu

Bahkan ketika lidah kaku dan kelu

 
 

Cinta tak menunggu

Karena cinta seperti horizon waktu

Dengan gerakan secepat suara

Jika Mata tak mengungkapnya

Telinga tak mendengarnya

Atau Hati tak merasainya

Maka cinta pasti lari begitu saja

Kita hanya mampu meratapi

Jejak-jejak cahaya

Can't Rule My Own Life

My whole January is terrible. I can't fix up everything. I messed up in everything I did. Even sometimes I don't want to see the world.it is better for me to lock down myself on my own room. Everything is so much terrible for me now. I realized that it is the effec of my laziness in few months lately. Well, I told you!! I am not such a good man in a good situation, and I have never been good. I am pretending to be good, you know!!

 
 

I need songs. I need movies. I need books. I need many other things to set my whole own life again. I need a little run. I need exercise. I need to talk. I need a woman. I need a hug. I need to cry.  I need many other things except one: being not myself.

I am Offering You Apologies

I am offering you apologies. ….

It is suffering me every time I see things in purple or violet. I remember RumahUngu, I remember you. I remember every mistakes I made, very lies I said. I just guilty after all, I confess it!! I am sorry.

 
 

I am offering you apologies….

For every mistakes I made, I will pay it with truth. For every lies I said, I will pay it with honesty. What else can I give? For every questions, I will present you every little answer of it. Just give me chance to say, "I am guilty."

 
 

I am offering you apologies….

Because I can not stand still any longer with these anger you blame me. I have nowhere to run anymore. It is true that I don't know what I've got 'til it's gone. Ahh…. It just…. It's…. I am speechless. I know now how deep the words mean. I am sorry.

 
 

I am offering you apologies….

And if these are not enough for you to forgive me, I will offer it in every other life chance I meet with you.

The Day Has Turned Tomorrow

3.40 after midnight. I play my playlist all nigh long, but I can not sleep yet. It is suffering me.

 
 

Day has turned to Saturday, to a new day, but I still can't close my eyes. I don't know, I hope I don't have to see the dawn comes and breaks. If I do, well…. Something's totally wrong about me. I was thinking, what did I think about? Who? Why? But, I found no answers. It just that I couldn't close those both eyes, heart; the same as I couldn't close the days with all good surrounding. Well, still much time before dawn comes. My back is suffering, my eyes is tired, my neck is killing me, But it is my mind that can not stop thinking: THINKING ABOUT NOTHING. What the h***!!